Another Boring Day + My Love Experience :\

So today I had appreciation dinner for volunteering my service. TBH, I think I don't really deserve it as I did not do much. I am actually only going cos my friend wanted to go. Well, mainly cos we signed up together so obviously we should go tgt also right?

So today I typed a chapter and a half of my story at wattpad - The Rose. Chapter 1 is crappy I think but hey, it is still introduction time yo. So I guess it will turn out okay? (I prayed hard it will) Actually, I didn't even know why I titled it The Rose. At first I thought maybe I should follow my account bio. But as I typed the story, I think the title doesn't really match. HAIZ Should I change the flow of my story for the title or continue the direction it is currently going now?

I was thinking maybe the lead character will fall in love and start a r/s but hey, I have no experience (only knowledge from drama). The lack of experience is sort of deterring me from writing the love part, maybe just unrequited love? I think I am very much experienced at this instead :\

Maybe, if I accepted others' confession, I would have experience. In primary school, I happened to find out that my mother tongue classmate had a crush on me. I didn't believe that of course. I mean, we are freaking 11 only. Who the hell has crush that early? Well, maybe crushes happens to boys earlier. As I was saying, his friends was spreading around words that he liked me. I didn't know how to react man. He asked his friend to give me a letter in assembly period. I asked my friend what to do and they helped me settle with the letter. So, I didn't even read it. I guess I was such a bitch back then uh. Maybe now is my karma since I was always a bitch with boys.

I met him again in a tuition center. SUPER SHOCKING! I thought he wouldn't recognise me seeing how I became so tan in secondary school. OOPS. He actually knew who I was but hey, I found out he was attached that's why we didn't like "catch up" and stuff. I think the catching up will be weird though. The funny thing that I found out was, he was actually younger than me by 1 day. LOL Well, so far I know my auntie and SHINEE's Taemin is born on the 18th, I'm 19 and he's 20. Coincident much?

Well, all this crush thing actually got a bit out of hand in secondary school. I didn't trust my friends since they practically told everyone who I was crushing on. I think even the teachers find out cos my class made me sit with my crush OMG. It was good and all but it was SUPER AWKWARD. But, the good thing was my crush is always asleep in class (gamer boy) so, I did not have to care about him being near me. One funny thing I remembered was I poured slime on his palm and he instantly throw it on the floor. IT WAS SUPER EPIC!!! I was crazy in secondary school with all my nonsense. (I seriously think my nonsense is still alive.)

My 3 years unrequited love end tragically with me studying engineering and him studying god knows what in another country. I was tired of always being the first one to contact him instead of him finding me first. I actually found out he felt the same way as me but he made a joke out of it. I knew he was not going to take the first step so I texted him "I see you as more of a friend" (something like that) and stupidly, I forgot he might be with his so called friends. He actually showed them my message OMG. It was super embarrassing. I happened to find out as one of the boys in his clique is actually in my clique. He just wanted to have some guy time. Well, thanks to his guy time, I was embarrassed. I actually didn't really like him for being in my clique. He was very clingy and always like to know my secrets. BITCH. SECRETS ARE CALLED SECRETS BECAUSE WE WANT TO KEEP IT HIDDEN. He even blurted out my confession gone wrong in my face. OMG. I wished I had died there and then. My confession didn't get the reply. He just said he knew how I felt. AND THAT'S IT. NOTHING HAPPENED. I even stupidly suggested if he wanted to go to the same poly -which is NYP. It was my dream school actually. BUT MY WHOLE LIFE PRACTICALLY CRASHED.

I moved on. I don't want to be that desperate little girl who clings on to guys. I don't want to waste my youth on stupid things. Things was going fine in my first year at a new school. I hated this guy, still hating him. To think I'm going to be stuck with him for 3 whole years. OMG I should totally stick to my first choice man. Man, why did I change it? Now I need to learn stupid stuff with stupid people in my class. I only feel like myself with my CCA peeps. IDKY but my class really sux.

What I Did During My 3 Weeks Vacation

Vacation's almost over and I haven't done my assignment yet PFFT. I bet no one in my group has done anything too. I just hope I won't be tanking it all alone cos tat would be sad :(

SO basically, my 3 weeks of holidays so far is spent with movies, dramas and camp. I did not really do anything extraordinary.

Hmm, let's see I finished 2 dramas, "My Amazing Boyfriend" and "Someone Like You", the sitcom, "ICarly", and a few old movies. Today I watched Zootopia. Life seems great but it gets tiring.

I went to camp a few days ago as a first aider. The camp was a disaster tbh not as successful like the PWB peep says. -rolls eyes-

First of all, top 4 shouldn't be GLs. Instead, GLs should be department heads. The prez is saying that everyone should mingle around and bond with campers to look out for potential subcomms. BITCH PLS, this wouldn't be the case if you hadn't wanted to be a GL in the first place. Adding on, you do too many redundant things like for example, stealing other people's job scope. I mean if you are doing their job, what are they going to do?

Secondly, why the camp failed is cos there are too many meetings and redundant dry runs. (Not mentioning 3 of them involving the first aider - I mean for what?) First of all, they told me to go to their meeting to provide feedbacks. Then, I was told to go to the pre-camp training to learn the cheers and games. Also, I had to go to a full dry run before the camp itself. I mean what does this concerns me? Even worse, I had to pay for suckish food. And to think that they keep saying there is no budget when each and everyone has to pay a freaking $18. DAMN.

Speaking of food, actually the 2 food ICs had already planned out a moderate meal plan for the whole 3 days. But because of this "no budget", the PWB gang revamped the food plans with suckish food, 2 ananas lunches, outdoor cooking for 1 dinner(instant noodles and canned food) and suckish KG food. The assistant camp chief ordered the KG catering and he didn't even check what is mapo tofu. How dumb can he get man? Apparently, mapo tofu is spicy and the ACC didn't even consider the food requirements. What is the purpose of asking the campers and organising committee about their diet then?

Adding on, there are too many sudden changes. Like, they didn't even plan for wet weather properly and there is WAY TOO MANY WALKING. PWB is too much in control.

Well, on the bright side, I did managed to spend time with nice people and bitching about PWB throughout the 3 days. LOL

I just created an Instagram account @amishinx where I will most likely be posting everyday, be it unglams or fandom related hehe. My insta account is currently blocked from following people haiz. Guess I have to wait till tomorrow so I can start following accounts again.

I've been doing some serious thinking. Maybe I will learn some cooking or proceed to being a nurse. Who knows what I'm capable of doing. I might even surprise everyone. xp Well, good luck to my future.