First Post in 2018

Hi world! Can't believe it's already 11th of April already and I'm only updating this blog now... OOPZ 8)

Anyways, since I am 4 months late, I shall update on how 2018 has been for me...

I am currently an Early Childhood student since March 2018 and will be a certified Early Childhood teacher by August 2019. So far, school has been vexing as there are alot assignments and my current one is 90%!!! SOBSSS :(

Anyways, seeing one of my friends kinda active on tinder makes me wanna go back to e-penpal-ing LOLZ. It was fun until I got random emails from creeps -ahem-

Back to topic, it's only my 2nd month of school and I think I'm growing old fast. I'm taking the week off from work but this means I won't earn as much. I still nid to pay off my remaining school fees. A classmate said that I won't be able to use all of my government funds and I'm like "I'm so doomed". :\

I need moneyyyyyyy and at the same time I kinda got a wishlist :\ Life is sad when you don't get what you want.

So I heard my field praticum won't be a paid one and this sux since I wouldn't be able to earn. Plus, I can't even quit my salad job HAIZZZ... Been wanting to quit since the day I started LOLZ.

My life as a student is so far not as smooth-sailing as I tot it would be. Heng my first group was awesome and we were able to do it way ahead before dateline. The 2nd group work was vexing as there were so many edits to be done. Also, I gt sick my stress level went higher zzz

I'm currently doing my third module and guess what, itz 90% and itz individual ._.

GREATTTTTTTTTT...

Let's hope I can finish at least 90% of the workload by this weekend so I can slack LOLZ HEHE 8)

Life Is Full Of Dramas, Literally

So, I'm at Season 7 of The Vampire Diaries already and it's been a whole ride of ups and downs. I kinda miss Klaus now. It's weird how I shipped Caroline and Klaus together. Maybe I'm just a sucker for British accent.

The drama is getting boring though, been thinking to start watching Riverdale but I'm scared I'll be hooked to it like I am with 13 Reasons Why.

My life is kinda dramatic as well. As much as I like dramas, real life drama is a drag especially if there is no happy endings. I still remember a story I read at wattpad about how happy endings aren't actually an ending. In fact, happy endings are just a new beginning. Nothing really last, especially happy ones. Good things don't last. I just have to deal with it.

The next round of university applications is coming soon and I still haven't figured out what I want to do. The only problem I think is, can I actually get into uni? As much as I want to get in, I don't think I am able to get in. Sucks huh? I guess dreams don't work unless you do. My GPA is like shit and if I can't get in, private schools are my only ticket to have a degree. Diploma isn't enough in this century, apparently.

So... for now I made a list of things I need to get it done by September, before I submit my application.

1. scan the remaining academic transcripts and personal achievements

2. scan my ID

3. get a passport sized photo (maybe in softcopy as well?)

4. write my resume

5. write my personal statement

6. write my essay

7. get a screenshot of payslip or CPF statement (i think this part is the easiest)

8. prepare for announcement of acceptance/rejection (YAY?)

I guess worse come to worse, I will just enlist in the army? LOL at least I would have something to do. On the side note, as I'm grumbling about how sad my life is, other people are worst. I have this coworker who don't even have a diploma and is struggling to get a full time job. I guess now the economy is bad huh?

I just hope things will be better next month. :\ 

Life Is Like A Rose; there are good times & bad times

Living life in b&w was tiring... I decided to live life in colour again. Friends are forever, boys are juz there. I don't need them.

So from yesterday onwards, I've revert back to the good ole days when I read all those tragic stories on wattpad especially those triggered stories. Well, since my life is already so pathetic, these stories actually made me feel much better as my life isn't that bad juz that it will still be suckish and I can't change it.

I sort of scare him away when I asked for a closure. Tbh, I didn't even know what I was doing. It felt bitter of coz but I kind of agree tat we are better of as friends but I juz dun get wat he means by him not compatible wif me. Itz either his putting himself down or itz legit true. I think itz the former though.

Anyways, the good thing is I no longer have school so I won't bump into him. Such a bummer though coz I keep "seeing" him everywhere. But I believe I'm done with this. I'm okay being friends juz tat r/s haz to wait a few years I guess...

SO ytd onwards I had a curfew I think; 10pm. It suckz... no more going out late I guess haizzzzzzzz I wan more freedom!!!

Note to Self

I feel like burying myself in the sand yesterday while I was at the beach. Getting immobilised for a moment and not thinking much. But I think the soaking in the sea worked since water has always calm me since I was young. Maybe that is why I always like to go swimming. The down side is getting tanner everytime I go LOL.

So Ryl and Nia was curious about the whole thing that happened. I mean I don't mind telling but Ryl seems intimidating so I ended up juz saying snippets of it LOL. I think I'm juz not comfortable enough to talk f2f I guess? The reassuring thing was Ryl is ready to punch him if anything were ti happen. I find it funneh coz Ryl is like s much smaller. I think he confirmed lose HAHAS. Nia even called him a jerk I can't even. I think I was even stupidly defending him coz he is still my friend, rite?

Well, on the plus side I think I am more calm now. I sort of will myself not to get too attached to them as a whole ba yknow... but I feel bad like the rest aren't at fault. But I think deep down Iknew what was his reason. He likes her. Itz so obvious actually juz that he hasn't figured it out yet. He is even willing to help her get thru her shitz. I mean who wouldn't want a guy like that rite? The girl muz be blind if she didn't see it.

Time to change I guess. My image haz already changed. I juz hope no one else noe about this drama coz itz kinda embarrassing. Idk wat I would do if one day someone asked me do I like him LOL.

July 5th is kinda like D-Day coz of the event and I will see them and another annoying person. Sorry but I think I'm scared of you >~< . You are a good senior but I don't feel that comfortable around you especially alone. Sorry for always rejecting you but it was a legit reason that I wasn't free.... Wei and I think I should stay away from you coz itz kinda creepy... And I think I should distance myself from the opposite sex for a while. I should stop being friendly and comfortqble with the opposite sex coz itz toxic to me. Yeap, note to self.

Update

Hi blog! Long time no see! So....... life has been hectic i guess... as always... I'm like waiting for Uni Applications but I still don't know what I want to do in life GG...

These past few days has been sooooooooooo tiring I KENNUT.

But I think itz coz I'm juz kinda depressed LOL... Things are like biting me in the ass and I'm like here lost at what to do... Well 12 June 2017 marks the day when I was a goner... I think I lost myself on that night... Such a bummer... I'm like letting a rejection get to me like this...

Letz start frm the beginning shall we? Well first, I got crazy and decided to confess so I sent him a song link of Carly Rae Jepsen's I Really Like You... and things were going smooth I guess since he said he don't mind with a r/s or whatever... and then few days later BOOM, I plunged downhill like on a rollercoaster ride that is going down...

Saying I was fine was underrated since I wasn't. Till date, I think I'm still not okay... I guess time will heal ba... But based on my past experience, I dun think I'm gonna will myself to forget this coz I think I might forget my other memories instead... I guess I have to stay strong for now... Even arcades not working in cheering me up...

Reading back my poem "A Fool" makes me think that it was me... I think I predicted my own future LOL GG What is wrong with me and my love life? Juz stay single sua rite? Lesser problem, lesser commitments, lesser drama...

Update bout my life at the moment...

Exams are next week and i've been doing a lot of questions in preparation for them. Since I failed my components for PSA, I have to get at least 75 marks for that paper on Monday which is driving me crazy.

As much as everyone has faith in me, I don't. I am super scared I will fail that module and have to retake another semester. It just sux since I'm not born with a high IQ. + itz not helping that I'm beyond lazy since forever. HAIZZZZZZ...

So here I am, on my study break trying to grasp the already blurring situation. I got a very bad feeling that I have to remodule. HAIZZZZ... but nonetheless, I don't think it's the end of the world rite ? At most, I just have to study harder to graduate in September/October instead of May :\

Letz face life with positivity anyways since life isn't that colourful to begin with...

Memory

Memory is something remembered from the past. It is therefore a precious thing. To contain a memory of someone or something from the past and be able to retain it is a gift. Some suffer from amnesia and therefore, do not get to enjoy the gift. Those who still has their memory intact though, some tend to use it to an advantage or sometimes not appreciating it.

I personally belong to the group that don't appreciate certain memories that I still retained in my mind. However, those that I want to remember are those that I forgot. Often, I wished my memory capacity wouldn't play such a joke on me. It's cruel to remember things I don't want to and forgetting those memories which are so valuable to me. Things that happened just five minutes ago, I can't seem to remember it well. Sometimes, I even forget those memorable experiences I had in the past. Today, an acquaintance from the past said hi to me but I failed to recognise instantly who he was. It was sad since I am now forgetting people I've met and interacted with.

Maybe this is karma since I always wished I had amnesia so I can forget all those painful memories. Nowadays, instead of burying them inside somewhere, they seemed to be popping out one by one. I even had a vivid nightmare about one of it. It was horrible since I was like practically experiencing it all over again.

If I were granted a wish to remember something in the past, I would want to remember all the good times I had with my muzk3t33rz (i forgot the stylized name and where my badge is, ohwell). Seriously, I was able to reminisce a lot about the past last time, but now, I can barely remember anything other than vague facts.

Sometimes I think having amnesia is a gift instead since one is granted the chance to create a new life. The past live isn't that important anymore in this case. People keep saying that the past doesn't matter since we are living in the present but it is hard to act that way. I keep thinking about the past and can't seem to move on even though I have the mindset to do so. It's depressing and at the same time it is causing me to crumble bit by bit. Being hung up by the past isn't something you want to experience. So, how does one move on? I thought it would be easier to just forget everything and bury them somewhere but it seemed to only be taunting me.

I think I need help but at the same time it's weird getting help from people, especially strangers. Why would strangers care about your baggage? It's just too much. I just thought (still think) that keeping everything inside me and tackling everything by myself is all that it takes. I shouldn't burden anyone, not last time, today or ever.

Depression

Depression is a state of unhappiness or despondency. When one feel emotions like hopelessness and despair, it might be depression.

It is said that depression tends to engulf one's life while in some cases, one might not even feel like anything has changed. The symptoms vary depending on the cases of the one experiencing it.

Some may experienced changes in weight, oversleeping or even loss of interest in daily activities.

Those who felt like nothing has changed, are those who are slowly falling into depression. This is especially if the person is introverted or are slowly distancing them everyone including their own family or their loved ones.

They will start to be alone and not really feel that they are actually alone when in reality, they are indeed alone. This is sad actually since the person is slowly going into oblivion.

In some cases, when the person is aware that they are alone, they feel distraught and this can become guilt which in turn becomes self-blame. Some even proceed to self-inflict and continue to live in their own world.

Slowly by slowly, they sink further into the black hole until one day someone is brave enough to pull the person out. This will only be possible if the person opens his/her heart.

So, will the day to finally come out of the hole finally come?

SUCCESS

What is success? What do you define as success? How do you determine it's a success?

All these questions, it seems no one is completely sure whether they have the right answer or not. At one point, some may have their own answers but it can't be said to be correct. Not everyone agrees to a particular definition of success. It seems everyone has their own way of determining success.

This brings us back to the burning question - what is success? If you look in the dictionary, success is "the accomplishment of an aim or purpose". So, does that mean that success can be defined in one's way of defining it?

Many have a standard for the term "success". To them, success is bringing in money, earning profits and being one of the top few multi-billionaires. This makes one ponder whether success equals to money. Many tend to define that they are equal but are they really equal?

So, what is success actually?

TIRED

Ever felt so tired in your life? I know I did at some point in my life.

I can be doing something I like at the moment and I feel so lethargic that I am barely doing anything. It's like I'm staring into space or even stoning but in actuality, I'm just reflecting on myself.

It feels so depressing and everything just feels like a downer. I even feel weak to get up from my bed to actually have a decent bath. I just lay there as I looked up at the dusty ceilings and ponder on things. I can be looking at how round the lights in my room are and the next moment I stare at the white empty space and drift off to another world.

At times when I'm on the way to school, I look out the window and watch all the trees, buildings and people I left behind as the bus made its way to its destination. All I did is just stare at things and do nothing else. I can't really say I'm listening to music even if I'm plugged in since the music is just there to break the silence and nothing else.

On days when I was brought to another world, I was having an adventure that I would not forget. However, if you asked me what they were, I could not give any answers as I have forgotten everything. It seems like my subconscious mind is working when I'm actually conscious which means to say I am actually daydreaming for real. I always wonder how my subconscious mind works and how is it I can't seem to remember the dreams that I wished to remember. It's annoying actually, not being to do what you want.

School is such a drag, with homework piling up and exams coming up. I wished I was born smart so I don't have to waste time studying something so difficult. As much as I like school, I hate exams. It's tiring to study and when the results failed me, I just feel so tired and distraught.

It's funny how the feeling tired can branched out to many other feelings. It's similar to the term mixed feelings at the same time it differs since tired is like the core feeling involved. It's like tired causes certain feelings to come by and further destroys oneself. It's scary though if one takes tired too leisurely. The consequences may be dire.

My personal experience may differ to others and at this moment I wonder, what does tired actually means?

Lies & Liars

Lies are so easy to conjure especially when it becomes a habit. With a snap of the fingers, lies are told. Every second, someone is lying whether directly in the face or behind someone's back.

A habit turned into an addiction makes one a professional liar. A facade is put on the liar's face where only a few is able to see through. If you look closer, you will be able to see more, like the sudden movement in the eyelids, a hitch in the breath or even the sudden change of expression. It is said that a joyful person is actually a loner and in turn, a liar.

A mysterious person is seen as someone with so many things to hide. It is also assumed that they too are liars.

So, does this means everyone is a liar at some point of time?

Update

I keep having dreams of KPOP idols that are not my oppa. Maybe coz my sister always watches them beside me and it's kinda annoying since I sorta don't like them.

The weird thing was that my sis's bias was saving me from this evil guy and change my life for the better. I might have read too much on this genre LOL.

So I had a very bad headache sort of thing yesterday which caused me to wake up in the middle of the night twice. Usually I would never wake up when I'm sleeping as I'm a deep sleeper but yesterday was hell. The pain was mostly on my neck at the back of my head and it's very annoying. As I'm typing this, I'm still feeling the pain. ARGHHHHH Life just sucks.

And I realised I'm supposed to be at school today to do my project but I forgot so I decided to do a bit on my other projects at home.

Everyone I know is on overseas, even my family is going next week for 3 days. I'm not going as I don't really feel the hype of going.

I used to be jealous of people going to holidays once or twice a year and they even went cruising before. I feel like a total virgin since I never experienced a lot of things in life. It's aggravating to be living like this at times.

So recently there is 3 Kdramas hot on my list - Weighlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo, Goblin and Hwarang.

I've been catching up with Weighlifting Kim Bok Joo since the 2 main casts caught my eye in School 2015 and Cheese In The Trap respectively. Nam Joo Hyuk is one rising actor man! Lee Sung Kyung wasn't actually my fav person in Cheese In The Trap since she was evil to Kim Go Eun tsk. But she proved to be a very good actress. I caught a glimpse of her in Doctor and it's quite sad she isn't the lead actress coz she is good. Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo granted my wish and bonus, she didn't even have to show her pretty face to show off her charms!

Goblin caught my eye since Lee Dong Wook, Yook Sung Jae and Kim Go Eun is in it. Everyone is there to see Gong Yoo ever since he was so popular in Train to Busan well, me not really. The bromance between Gong Yoo and Lee Dong Wook is one of the most eye-catching scenes though! Especially when Lee Dong Wook bizarre actions takes part in the drama! This drama is worth the hype!

Hwarang is like another Scarlet Heart Ryeo since it is full of kkot nam ja. I'm basically there to see Park Seo Joon, Go Ara and Park Hyung Sik. A lot is chasing after BTS, V but me not so much. Episode 2 was super touching omg! Lee Kwang Soo cameo was simply memorable! I just hope this drama won't be a disappointment like Scarlet Heart...

Reliving My Childhood Days

I've watched Winx Club since I was 7, from 2004.

My friend introduced it to me and told me I had to watch it. I wasn't an early riser but this cartoon made me wake up early every Saturday to watch it on TV. If it wasn't for this cartoon, I would sleep in every Saturday~

So I liked Bloom since forever. Maybe coz I always liked the main characters LOL And I absolutely detest the evil villains no matter what show I'm watching.

I've been rewatching the series from Season 1 to the first movie. Previously, I tried to watch until Season 7 but barely made it to the middle. They changed the graphics and voices and it kinda ruined my childhood. But coz I wanted to know what happened, I braced myself HAIZ.

So I heard there is Season 8 and another movie coming up after the two seasons of World Of Winx. Seriously mind-blowing! I wonder if kids nowadays even know what they are watching since the generation now are watching from around Season 6 onwards. Maybe they will grow up realising their childhood was a lie like all of us LOL.

I went to winxclub,com just now and downloaded a few wallpapers and decided to make it into a calendar for my PC coz why not. Call me childish or wateva HAHA.

Below are the calendar templates I generated from calendar-pdf.net Feel free to check out the website for an easy way to get a calendar and your fav photo :D

JANUARY 2017

FEBRUARY 2017

MARCH 2017

APRIL 2017

MAY 2017

JUNE 2017

JULY 2017

AUGUST 2017

SEPTEMBER 2017

OCTOBER 2017

NOVEMBER 2017

DECEMBER 2017

8 DECEMBER = WORSE DAY EVER

Im so gonna be screwed tmr!!!

BYEBYE 15% of my grade

BOO ME FOR NOT UNDERSTANDING A SINGLE SHIT DAMNIT!

WELL I TRIED STUDYING TDY, IT DIDNT WORK.

SRSLY THEY SHOULD GIVE US MODEL ANSWERS SO I CAN ACE MY EXAMS. 

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

SO PISSED NOW!

IM SO GONNA BE MARKED BY THE HATEFUL TEACHER WHEN HE RETURNED OUR PAPERS BACK WHEN SCHOOL REOPENED!

YAY ME! @@

I COULDN'T BE HAPPIER ==

Temporary Study Break

Been studying for several hours now... I wonder what I studied...

Damn, I'm screwed! I'm so gonna blame the cher for not teaching us the theory properly ARGH!!! I don't get a single thing!! OMG...

PLEASE PLEASE LET ME AT LEAST PASS THIS STUPID MODULE ARGH!

Well, at least I won't fail one of my papers. My first paper was rather easy just that I forgot a few simple theory tsk. My mind decides to play me at the last moment THANKS (so not pfft)

I read this touching story from twitter about this girl writing a letter to herself 10 years later. I find it cool and maybe I should do it too? DAMN, I seriously think I'm age-ing backwards.

I learn a lot now compared to when I was actually on the growing phase. I think I might really be weird...?

I've run out of english teenage movies, maybe it's time to watch mature ones. NAH... I barely survived an NC16 violent movie without shutting my eyes at every gory scene EWW. I tried watching Deadpool with my underage sister, let's just say we survived the first 5min of it oops. It was too much for my eyes and my fragile heart HAHA.

Well, time to study again. Wish me good luck :)

Until next time...

The Wrong Path

I've decided to end my virtual world and then I receive an email from a virtual friend. WOW.

Things just aren't going my way.

I have my mid terms next week. I'm so not ready. Well at least there is no paper on Wednesday.

The only problem is I still can't find my calculator. I swear it's like my 10th calculator already! ARGH! I must have left it in the library the other day coz I can't find it anywhere!!

Sooo, I decided not to get a new one since it's my last semester. I juz hope my sister's calculator won't bail on me. And I need to get it approved. Such a bummer!

I've been thinking, maybe I'm on the wrong track. I should have ended this 2 years ago. Now I've wasted 2 years + studying something I hate and end up not getting anywhere. I should have went to study F&B Business like I wanted to. I was delusional to think that he would go there with me too.

I feel so ashamed now to be so delusional and desperate over some teenage crush. PFFT, I'm so stupid.

I feel more stupid now, realising two days ago, I tried stalking his social media. Well, obviously he didn't update so I just wasted my effort. ARGH!!

OMG I should stop thinking about him. DAMN, to think I wasted 3 whole years liking him?! What's with me and wasting 3 years LOL. I wasted 3 years before and I'm wasting 3 years again. My fate with life sux.

My playlist seems boring now, so here I am listening to the radio and Bruno Mars - It Will Rain is playing. I feel more depressed now. :\

I've been dying to do a health check. And then, my sort of smart ass friend decided to say just take a freaking blood test coz I'm wasting my money on nonsense ECG. Well, it's my money and my wish. God, just let me do it! I've got a very bad feeling about my heart so I need to get it check out. -shrugs-

Well, I might die sometime and with my failing memory, I'm trying to record my life everyday in case I forgot certain memories. OH WELL I failed my life.

Subconscious and Conscious Mind

I've been having weird dreams lately. On the plus side, at least I'm not so sleep-deprived, I guess. And also, I might be able to control my insomnia the healthy way. So I know I cannot sleep early, so I made use of the time to do my project. Hell, all my teachers decided to bomb us projects when exams are round the corner. Powerpoints, reports and whatnot all due when school reopen. Save Me!!!

I've decided not to work for now until after I graduated. I need a break from all the nonsense. I need more me time so work has to be sacrificed. Money is sacrificed too, oh well.

So this morning, around midnight, my friend texted me about this "DBS paylah" promo (whilst stock last). I earned a good SGD5.00 but then I got greedy. I wanted more but no one is willing to help me. DAMN, they all scared and whatnot. I needed the moneh bitches.

If any of you readers decides to help me, download the DBS paylah app and sign up. Remember to key in my referral code "AMEHZU710" and you can get SGD5.00 too. Hurry coz only first 30k transaction.

Well, enough about money talk, now Kdrama is getting boring. The nice ones are not in seasonal so I watched english sitcoms when I'm bored and decided to turn on the tv. My father installed this thingy called "MBOX" and there is this app called Megabox. It's super good coz all new movies are there (but I don't watch them) and english tv shows are even included. I managed to watch the whole "ICarly" series. I used to watch them but not in order as I didn't have the tv cable last time. Now, I wished I had so I can watch all the Disney Channel sitcoms like The Suite Life series. DAMN, my childhood is being missed.

I feel bad nowadays, cos everyone is chasing after their K namjas. I lost hope in voting for MAMA 2016. Let's face it, INFINITE lost their glory days since Last Romeo and when they embarrassed themselves EPIC!! Dongwoo was super hilarious like always.

It's saddening coz no matter how good they are, they are not winning MAMA anymore. IT'S UNFAIR. Even now, BTOB has a nice comeback song again "I'll Be Your Man" but they are being under-appreciated. KPOP is becoming weird.

I saw an article about the 3 rookie girl groups from SM, YG and JYP. The top 3 entertainment agency. Well, I seriously hoped BLACKPINK rises among the other two - Red Velvet and Twice coz they are better and I don't really like RV and T. (Hate me all you want but I'm still not gonna like them; maybe at most I only like Jeongyeon)

OKAY, back to my subconscious mind, I think I have a wild imagination deep inside my head that only comes out in my dreams. I should take note of them and maybe make use of it when I'm in the mood for some story writing HAHA.

Time to continue my report writing; SAYOUNARA MINNA-SAN!!!

A Not So Good Night

Well, I sort of forced myself to go to sleep yesterday, which totally didn't work out.

I slept at 2am. YAY at least I improved from 4am and barely managed to wake up for school today. THANK GOD my class starts at 10am today.

So I was abruptly woken up from my sleep by my alarm and ALSO this very weird dream.

I vaguely remember the whole details but the main thing is the characters and what I did in the dream.

Disclaimer: The following paragraphs may or may not offend some people BUT HEY, it's juz a dream~

So if I remember correctly, I was sort "mates" with 2 guys namely GOT7 BamBam and Mark. (weird right, I know) First of all, no offence and all, I rather dream about my INFINITE oppas especially Dongwoo but NO, my brain decided to make me dream about GOT7.

Anywho, back to the dream, I was at first destined to be mates with BamBam. And to sort of "seal the deal" (basically, agreeing to be mates) with this mate thing, I had to bite of my mate's ear and sort of suck the blood out. (I mean, eww?! I hate the taste of blood the most) Well anyways, in my dream, my mate's blood is supposed to be sweet. So yeah, his blood is sweet.

And then, a sudden change in scenes, I was sort of given another mate. GOD knows why but I'm into polygamy?! Well, Mark was to be my second mate and I was to mark him the same way. But, something forbids it and ta-dah, we cannot process the marking. So, I had to taste bitter blood like EWW. I can already imagine the taste.

So I woke up after feeling disgusted. I told my friend this morning and she suggested me googling what my dream was about. I was sure nothing would come out coz I always have weird dreams. Maybe the too much werewolves and vampires stories on wattpad made me go crazy. Like seriously?!

Well, I went to google it, and it's the closest I could get since who on earth would post a dream like mine?!

• Luck if collecting or drinking blood - When you dream that you collect or even drink the blood, this announces you will have good prospects and good hopes
• Biting someone so as to make him bleed -  You love him but will harm him
• The dreamer biting someone out of love - Will love him more

GREAT. I think I'm lost now. OHWELLS T^T

Karma Strikes Me

So insomnia is not only a curse but also a misfortune.

I got grouped by two unknown people in my class. Seriously who are they? I don't think I ever heard their names before. ARGH I can see my project failing. DAYUM

My future is bleak; I can't see my future. My so called "clique" decided to leave me alone with 2 jokers. IDW do this project alone!!!!!!!!!

Karma is such a bitch...

INSOMNIA + MISSING CLASSES

It sucks wanting to have an early night but after 2 hours on the bed, I'm still awake. :[

So because of that, I didn't manage to wake up on time for school and I'm missing all my classes. I'm screwed, this can't be happening. My attendance is running low. ARGHHHHHHH I HATE INSOMNIA!!!

The stupid thing is I'm waking up at the time when my classes are over; let's face it, I won't make it to school on time for my classes. So practically, every week, I'm only going to school like 2-3 days :\

To make it worse, I don't know how to face my FYP group mate. He is doing everything to salvage our project and I'm not helping. I'm like a lost sheep now.

I should at least do the report since that is my niche. ARGH project piling up, exams are nearing and my project due date is creeping me. I feel like I'm buried under all these stress.

I'm desperate. TATSUKETEKUDASAI!!