TIRED

Ever felt so tired in your life? I know I did at some point in my life.

I can be doing something I like at the moment and I feel so lethargic that I am barely doing anything. It's like I'm staring into space or even stoning but in actuality, I'm just reflecting on myself.

It feels so depressing and everything just feels like a downer. I even feel weak to get up from my bed to actually have a decent bath. I just lay there as I looked up at the dusty ceilings and ponder on things. I can be looking at how round the lights in my room are and the next moment I stare at the white empty space and drift off to another world.

At times when I'm on the way to school, I look out the window and watch all the trees, buildings and people I left behind as the bus made its way to its destination. All I did is just stare at things and do nothing else. I can't really say I'm listening to music even if I'm plugged in since the music is just there to break the silence and nothing else.

On days when I was brought to another world, I was having an adventure that I would not forget. However, if you asked me what they were, I could not give any answers as I have forgotten everything. It seems like my subconscious mind is working when I'm actually conscious which means to say I am actually daydreaming for real. I always wonder how my subconscious mind works and how is it I can't seem to remember the dreams that I wished to remember. It's annoying actually, not being to do what you want.

School is such a drag, with homework piling up and exams coming up. I wished I was born smart so I don't have to waste time studying something so difficult. As much as I like school, I hate exams. It's tiring to study and when the results failed me, I just feel so tired and distraught.

It's funny how the feeling tired can branched out to many other feelings. It's similar to the term mixed feelings at the same time it differs since tired is like the core feeling involved. It's like tired causes certain feelings to come by and further destroys oneself. It's scary though if one takes tired too leisurely. The consequences may be dire.

My personal experience may differ to others and at this moment I wonder, what does tired actually means?