Note to Self

I feel like burying myself in the sand yesterday while I was at the beach. Getting immobilised for a moment and not thinking much. But I think the soaking in the sea worked since water has always calm me since I was young. Maybe that is why I always like to go swimming. The down side is getting tanner everytime I go LOL.

So Ryl and Nia was curious about the whole thing that happened. I mean I don't mind telling but Ryl seems intimidating so I ended up juz saying snippets of it LOL. I think I'm juz not comfortable enough to talk f2f I guess? The reassuring thing was Ryl is ready to punch him if anything were ti happen. I find it funneh coz Ryl is like s much smaller. I think he confirmed lose HAHAS. Nia even called him a jerk I can't even. I think I was even stupidly defending him coz he is still my friend, rite?

Well, on the plus side I think I am more calm now. I sort of will myself not to get too attached to them as a whole ba yknow... but I feel bad like the rest aren't at fault. But I think deep down Iknew what was his reason. He likes her. Itz so obvious actually juz that he hasn't figured it out yet. He is even willing to help her get thru her shitz. I mean who wouldn't want a guy like that rite? The girl muz be blind if she didn't see it.

Time to change I guess. My image haz already changed. I juz hope no one else noe about this drama coz itz kinda embarrassing. Idk wat I would do if one day someone asked me do I like him LOL.

July 5th is kinda like D-Day coz of the event and I will see them and another annoying person. Sorry but I think I'm scared of you >~< . You are a good senior but I don't feel that comfortable around you especially alone. Sorry for always rejecting you but it was a legit reason that I wasn't free.... Wei and I think I should stay away from you coz itz kinda creepy... And I think I should distance myself from the opposite sex for a while. I should stop being friendly and comfortqble with the opposite sex coz itz toxic to me. Yeap, note to self.