The Wrong Path

I've decided to end my virtual world and then I receive an email from a virtual friend. WOW.

Things just aren't going my way.

I have my mid terms next week. I'm so not ready. Well at least there is no paper on Wednesday.

The only problem is I still can't find my calculator. I swear it's like my 10th calculator already! ARGH! I must have left it in the library the other day coz I can't find it anywhere!!

Sooo, I decided not to get a new one since it's my last semester. I juz hope my sister's calculator won't bail on me. And I need to get it approved. Such a bummer!

I've been thinking, maybe I'm on the wrong track. I should have ended this 2 years ago. Now I've wasted 2 years + studying something I hate and end up not getting anywhere. I should have went to study F&B Business like I wanted to. I was delusional to think that he would go there with me too.

I feel so ashamed now to be so delusional and desperate over some teenage crush. PFFT, I'm so stupid.

I feel more stupid now, realising two days ago, I tried stalking his social media. Well, obviously he didn't update so I just wasted my effort. ARGH!!

OMG I should stop thinking about him. DAMN, to think I wasted 3 whole years liking him?! What's with me and wasting 3 years LOL. I wasted 3 years before and I'm wasting 3 years again. My fate with life sux.

My playlist seems boring now, so here I am listening to the radio and Bruno Mars - It Will Rain is playing. I feel more depressed now. :\

I've been dying to do a health check. And then, my sort of smart ass friend decided to say just take a freaking blood test coz I'm wasting my money on nonsense ECG. Well, it's my money and my wish. God, just let me do it! I've got a very bad feeling about my heart so I need to get it check out. -shrugs-

Well, I might die sometime and with my failing memory, I'm trying to record my life everyday in case I forgot certain memories. OH WELL I failed my life.