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Friday, 24 June 2016

Another Boring Day + My Love Experience :\

So today I had appreciation dinner for volunteering my service. TBH, I think I don't really deserve it as I did not do much. I am actually only going cos my friend wanted to go. Well, mainly cos we signed up together so obviously we should go tgt also right?

So today I typed a chapter and a half of my story at wattpad - The Rose. Chapter 1 is crappy I think but hey, it is still introduction time yo. So I guess it will turn out okay? (I prayed hard it will) Actually, I didn't even know why I titled it The Rose. At first I thought maybe I should follow my account bio. But as I typed the story, I think the title doesn't really match. HAIZ Should I change the flow of my story for the title or continue the direction it is currently going now?

I was thinking maybe the lead character will fall in love and start a r/s but hey, I have no experience (only knowledge from drama). The lack of experience is sort of deterring me from writing the love part, maybe just unrequited love? I think I am very much experienced at this instead :\

Maybe, if I accepted others' confession, I would have experience. In primary school, I happened to find out that my mother tongue classmate had a crush on me. I didn't believe that of course. I mean, we are freaking 11 only. Who the hell has crush that early? Well, maybe crushes happens to boys earlier. As I was saying, his friends was spreading around words that he liked me. I didn't know how to react man. He asked his friend to give me a letter in assembly period. I asked my friend what to do and they helped me settle with the letter. So, I didn't even read it. I guess I was such a bitch back then uh. Maybe now is my karma since I was always a bitch with boys.

I met him again in a tuition center. SUPER SHOCKING! I thought he wouldn't recognise me seeing how I became so tan in secondary school. OOPS. He actually knew who I was but hey, I found out he was attached that's why we didn't like "catch up" and stuff. I think the catching up will be weird though. The funny thing that I found out was, he was actually younger than me by 1 day. LOL Well, so far I know my auntie and SHINEE's Taemin is born on the 18th, I'm 19 and he's 20. Coincident much?

Well, all this crush thing actually got a bit out of hand in secondary school. I didn't trust my friends since they practically told everyone who I was crushing on. I think even the teachers find out cos my class made me sit with my crush OMG. It was good and all but it was SUPER AWKWARD. But, the good thing was my crush is always asleep in class (gamer boy) so, I did not have to care about him being near me. One funny thing I remembered was I poured slime on his palm and he instantly throw it on the floor. IT WAS SUPER EPIC!!! I was crazy in secondary school with all my nonsense. (I seriously think my nonsense is still alive.)

My 3 years unrequited love end tragically with me studying engineering and him studying god knows what in another country. I was tired of always being the first one to contact him instead of him finding me first. I actually found out he felt the same way as me but he made a joke out of it. I knew he was not going to take the first step so I texted him "I see you as more of a friend" (something like that) and stupidly, I forgot he might be with his so called friends. He actually showed them my message OMG. It was super embarrassing. I happened to find out as one of the boys in his clique is actually in my clique. He just wanted to have some guy time. Well, thanks to his guy time, I was embarrassed. I actually didn't really like him for being in my clique. He was very clingy and always like to know my secrets. BITCH. SECRETS ARE CALLED SECRETS BECAUSE WE WANT TO KEEP IT HIDDEN. He even blurted out my confession gone wrong in my face. OMG. I wished I had died there and then. My confession didn't get the reply. He just said he knew how I felt. AND THAT'S IT. NOTHING HAPPENED. I even stupidly suggested if he wanted to go to the same poly -which is NYP. It was my dream school actually. BUT MY WHOLE LIFE PRACTICALLY CRASHED.

I moved on. I don't want to be that desperate little girl who clings on to guys. I don't want to waste my youth on stupid things. Things was going fine in my first year at a new school. I hated this guy, still hating him. To think I'm going to be stuck with him for 3 whole years. OMG I should totally stick to my first choice man. Man, why did I change it? Now I need to learn stupid stuff with stupid people in my class. I only feel like myself with my CCA peeps. IDKY but my class really sux.

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